and I understand. Wonc's really upset after the Kisho news too. But I'd like to invite him over to the Spirit Cats all the same and since his last post was pretty anti Spirit Cat I thought some good old pompous rhetoric might sway him. But in retrospect it was ill timed.
Damn Kitsune, you know I love you, right? You've consistently been a cheerleader when the rest of us would go with sackcloth and ashes. You and the Spirit Cat fans have been really good sports for it all, and you all have my thanks.
That said, my Clan is dead. My first, and ultimately my last, faction has been reduced to a stain on the floor and a footnote in future books. I am
burned out on all of this. I'm tired of reading how awful things have gone for the bits of fluff I'm invested in. I'm sick of being subjected to a carrot-and-stick methodology to keep me connected to future products. I'm frustrated at having to reconcile feeling both happiness and sorrow from something that is supposed to be
my hobby.
The Spirit Cats... they aren't my faction. They're something else, something that I have no reason to feel a connection to. I get
why it should be only natural for me to support them. I totally do.
But I don't, and I won't. My Clan died a long, slow death worthy of a Greek tragedy. It would only belabor and mock what I felt about the whole thing to simply declare that I could learn to be content with something similar, yet different. Again, not to say
anything bad about any of the Spirit Cat fans out there, or about the Spirit Cats as a faction choice, but I find the idea distasteful. I know for a fact that I'm not alone in that view, either.
The beauty of the Spirit Cats is that they have a rich history to grow from, one organically nurtured over the course of the life of BattleTech. Spirit Cat fans have a wonderful chance to play with and support one of the game's few "home grown" factions (unlike those that sprung forth fully formed, as is the case with the great bulk of all of them). More power to them.
But please, at the end of the day, allow us old Nova Cats to feel what we must. I'm sure a few will probably come around, but the sad truth is that a good portion of us now have nothing holding us here. It's only a matter of time before the breeze blows hard enough to see exactly how many will become part of the new whole, and how many will simply disappear into the ether.
As for myself, I'm already in the wind.
