If you read The Bell Jar, then read Johnny Got His Gun right after that, don't be afraid to actively seek help for compulsive-depressive disorder (CDD), an affliction which I just now kind of made up, but dins with a distant ringing of truth nonetheless.
(edit: Wait... I forgot, someone else kind of made up CDD already. It's called Emo. ??? There's a spoiler of sorts for ya.)